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Where Shenron dares not to tread
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He's the sweetest guy,

I never thought he could hold hate in his eyes.

but you could see,

Every thought he had about him.

Every time he saw the travesty,

His hazel eyes would burn.

If only he knew I'd seen this fire,

That it made this hell feel abit lighter.

I hate that everytime he had to look at me,

He had to see him.

He hated it too.

When he looked at me,

Through my soul and into the wreckage,

He could see I was destroyed.

I could see him shifting in his place at the thoughts,

his love was so strong,

The reality killed.

Thats why he left dear,

Hes a spineless orb of confusion.

A being who can't face the guilt that he wasn't there.

The guilt that he had left.

The guilt that instead of talking her into a slumber,

He was wide awake, 

Drinking himself into insanity.

While she slept,

Screaming in agony.

He still carries the burden,

thats why he can't keep promises.

or maybe it was just something he said to save her.
The sick part of it all is that, yes, he was right to leave when he did. He was right to leave before the storm ever hit him, he was right to leave before the afterfall. Before the crying, the shame, the hurt and all the pain. Before he could ever know how broken I became, but now he's happy and I'm stuck all alone in my own hurricane, wanting him and knowing that even if he came back, our bridges would all fall exactly the same way.
This is
my last call
for things to get better
frozen
I can't breathe at all

like a ghost with no soul
like a heart with no beat
you're claiming control
unable to see

you're like a demon in the dark
and like a force with no release
you're claiming control
but you're always telling me

I'm too broken to be fixed
I'm too numb to feel the pain
too blind to see the truth
I'm too weak to walk away

but I'm finding strength

Koven- Final Call
Get out of my fucking head. Stop being so perfect, stop being so far away... I hate this loneliness.
He's the sweetest guy,

I never thought he could hold hate in his eyes.

but you could see,

Every thought he had about him.

Every time he saw the travesty,

His hazel eyes would burn.

If only he knew I'd seen this fire,

That it made this hell feel abit lighter.

I hate that everytime he had to look at me,

He had to see him.

He hated it too.

When he looked at me,

Through my soul and into the wreckage,

He could see I was destroyed.

I could see him shifting in his place at the thoughts,

his love was so strong,

The reality killed.

Thats why he left dear,

Hes a spineless orb of confusion.

A being who can't face the guilt that he wasn't there.

The guilt that he had left.

The guilt that instead of talking her into a slumber,

He was wide awake, 

Drinking himself into insanity.

While she slept,

Screaming in agony.

He still carries the burden,

thats why he can't keep promises.

or maybe it was just something he said to save her.

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Rae Morris
Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
Canada
Hello friends, I'm Rae. I'm an 18 year old girl from Canada. I suffer from Chronic depression, Social anxiety and PTSD. In my life I can confidently say I've been through hell and back between living double lives, one as an odd little girl who deals with the dark, behind the closed doors I was a slave for Pedophiles. I was that girl, shy, sheltered, and depressed. I cut myself, smoked to much, drank too much, had allot of shitty sex with assholes and pathological liars. I was raped, abandoned and shipped off to the hospital. I popped pills, my spirit died. I had too many lonely nights, too many nights where no one was watching, too many nights spent crying, hurting myself. Too many night's trying to kill myself. Then, after all this, I decided I'd had enough. I got clean, sober. I quit it all, the pills, the poisons. I quit letting it take over me. Even though I was used, even though I could have spoken sooner, even though I was choked, I kept going. I kept walking forward. Here I am now, it's been a year since the assult. All the event's that have scarred me more than once are backing up, going into the past. But enough about my hell's, here's some things about me. I love writing and drawing and painting, special FX makeup and singing. I enjoy food and music; basically a little bit of anything. I'm proud to be back here on DeviantArt after leaving for a few months, Lets hope for the best out of 2016 and stick together as a community! Love you all,

~DaSpazGurl

Hello Everyone, I am DaSpazGurl, it's nice to be back :D
Feel free to contact me at my email; xXDaSpazGurlXx@gmail.com
My Blog!! rachelmooreblogcom.wordpress.c…
Also I do not take commissions :3 so please do not ask ^^
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:iconiryna94:
Iryna94 Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Grazie per il watch
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IddyBiddySquish Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Hi! Just wanted to say thanks for the :+fav:! It means a lot <3
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IddyBiddySquish Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
OMG I'm such a div. I meant to put watch! facepalm 
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xXDaSpazGurlXx Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Haha it's okay :D no problem friend :)
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IddyBiddySquish Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
^^
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axelfirekirby Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
can i make a joke about evreything that has happened to are corner of DA?
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xXDaSpazGurlXx Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Sure
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:iconaxelfirekirby:
axelfirekirby Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
this is like a messed up anime
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xXDaSpazGurlXx Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
True though
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:iconaxelfirekirby:
axelfirekirby Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
so just checking up on you?
do you need anything?
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